I Am Not Angry At Your God
There seems to be some consensus among some Christians that all atheists are really Christians in their heart and that we are just mad at their god for some reason or another. This post is for you. Atheists have no need to read beyond this point unless they want to extend upon what I’m saying.
Christians, I am not angry at your god. I simply do not have a belief in any god. Notice I did not say that I believe there are no gods. Allah, Jehovah, Vishnu, Cthulhu, and Jesus; I do not believe they exist. I think it is likely that no god exists but I can’t rule it out because of the nature of the matter. We make no assertion about gods, we just don’t accept YOUR assertion. That is what an atheist is.
There is a very strong difference between an atheist like Richard Dawkins and a teenager who is angry at god over a loss of someone/thing and saying they “don’t believe in” a god. I know this because I’ve been both and I’ve known people on both sides of the fence. When I was eight my grandfather died very painfully due to a form of leukemia, causing me to question how loving the Christian god really was. The first time I said “I don’t believe in God.” was in private where only God could hear me, and the intent was to hurt his feelings if he did exist. In truth, I was still a Christian, I was just made at God and wanted to make him feel my loss. However, my grandfather’s death and the subsequent questions about faith eventually led me to real atheism, brought on through critical thought and not emotion.
There are a lot of people out there (most are young, I’d imagine) that were like my eight year-old self. Angry at a god and trying to take it out on him by saying they don’t believe in it. I would argue that in this instance, “I don’t believe in God” is being used in the context of “I have no confidence in you” or “I think you exist but I don’t love you”. That is not atheism. Those people can easily be brought back into the herd with a little prodding and emotional pleas. Honestly, they haven’t even left the herd, they are just having trouble coping with something in their lives. Those people would still be Christians, just Christians angry at their god.
I am not one of those people. I have looked at the evidence and applied logic. I have evaluated the situation with critical thought and decided that the Christian god is not real, as well as any other god that has been presented to me thus far. Pleas to my emotions will get you nowhere. Poking holes in prominent scientific theories is not the same as presenting your own theory. I need evidence of something, not against something else, to be swayed.
I am an angry atheist, but not because of your god. I am pissed off because of his followers. You* elect pious men in an attempt to subvert my Constitution, and you’ve done fairly well so far in that department. You* try to make what two consenting adults do in the privacy of their own home a part of public policy. You* send me three page emails about how it’s my fault 9/11 happened when you damn well know those men were praying when those planes hit the twin towers (this is very specific but it did actually happen). You try to subvert the education of our nation to further your religious agenda by appointing creationists onto state education boards. You cause the death of millions by forcing abstinence-only sex education. Worst of all, you use me as a swear word to further your political agenda and keep atheists on the lowest tier of untouchables, so that we will never be represented by our elected officials.
That being said, if your god did exist (Jehovah/Yahweh), I would not put my confidence in him. I would not love him. Nor would I praise him or go to church on Sundays. Your god is immoral. Your god has commanded atrocities that I could never support. Your god has committed genocide, to include infanticide. He is oppressive to women, gays, and minorities. He supports slavery. As well as having the temper of a two year old. I would rather burn in hell than worship your god.
Comments/Questions are welcome as long as they are productive.
* Not all Christians are this way, just enough to make it a problem. Please don’t comment only to defend yourself from my non-specific accusations.